Oh my God.
I have no idea where to begin things. It’s been awhile since I’ve had time to just… sit down and write.
But I suppose I have some time now. I’m currently at my cousin’s flat, somewhere in the middle of London (I was never really told where…). Marianne met me at the station and drove me here (she drives like one of those race car drivers! I thought we were honestly going to crash through the side of a building, or something!). She tried to make conversation with me, but my heart just wasn’t in it today. After all, I really want to go home, and Steven is on the other side of town…I haven’t been separated from him like this since… since, well, ever… Save the times when we were arguing, of course, but…
Did I mention that he’s asked me to move in with him? Well, he did, and I still can’t believe it… He asked me after we arrived back in London, after the train ride back. I was completely not expecting it. I mean, we had talked about it, way back in February or March, but I never thought…. And he’s got a flat in Manchester! I won’t have to leave home! I mean, I’d go anywhere he wants to go, but knowing that he wants to move to a city I don’t think he’s even been to before… That means a lot. More than I can ever say, that’s for sure. Gods, I love him…
…I think I’m going to have to take a break from writing, despite having only barely started. My head is throbbing like crazy, probably because I keep staring at the paper, deciding what to write next.
The bandage comes off next week. I cannot express how happy and relieved I am over that… Finally, things’ll begin to head back to normal… I still have trouble speaking, as I stutter and I get word blocks… It annoys me so much, because I’ve never had trouble with my speech in my life and now I have to adjust to this, and it’s just so… hard.
But things are going to get better. I’ll heal. I’ll get to go back home (even though I’ll have to deal with my mother and all the family… ugh). I’ll get used to life without my father (even though I know that’s not going to be easy. Not by a long shot).
But the best part… Steven will be with me every step of the way from now on. And there are no words for me to describe that feeling with. And... I know it might sound cliche or whatever... but it's true.